I write a 'meanwhile' article it's inspired by an event; something
I saw or experienced in some way. Sometimes the words are right
there, and with seemingly little effort from me they just
fall across the computer screen like rain drops on a window. Other
times I have to search for every sentence and piece together each
paragraph creating the finished article like an airfix kit.
I think this 'meanwhile' will be one of those shattered China
bowls. I have so much stuff I want to write, but I'm sitting here,
nearly motionless in the glare of the computer screen like a deer
caught in the headlights of a car.
This past weekend a close friend of mine expressed a feeling to
me that he had "no
soul." It was part of a much bigger conversation, that in
itself was just a small part of a far bigger issue. His life has
recently been turned upside-down though the break-up of his eight
year marriage. A personal trauma the like of which I feel I almost
have no understanding of.
Watching my friend go through this period is his life has been
utterly frustrating for me. I feel like I am simply unable to provide
the kind of help he needs, and while I am of course 'there for
him' I am feeling like just 'being there' is in actual fact one
step short of where I actually need to be.
It's like standing on the shore watching a ship sink and not having
anyway to get help for the helpless.
--- Article Notes ---
Time of death : 01:27
I tried to approach this subject on several occasions. This is the furthest
I managed to get. My considerations when writing were of course my friends
privacy, but also the worry that the end result might seem very negative
at a time when keeping my friends spirits up was hard enough. I decided
to abandon the piece after these brief few paragraphs because I was simply
not able to see the article going anywhere helpful. It is however a subject
that I would like to approach again, but perhaps when it harsh reality
is a little less raw and perspective might enable me to write something
with a better balance.